Destiny

As i gaze into the void many questions cross my mind.Do we understand how life works? Has any one person figured this out? Or is the equation different for everyone hence no definite answer awaits?
Decisions are made everyday that mould each persons life, from simple one of should I wear the yellow top? To should I quit my job? Each day we make that choice bringing us closer to our destiny. The question is how many wrong choices will you make before you make the right one? If the wrong choices lead you to your destiny maybe they are no longer wrong but right.

Once you give your all there is so much more to loose probably the laws of physics come into play. Over and over again I tell myself I shall no longer give my all, 50% of me for 50% for you. Just a safe guard to protect myself, yet that 50% still gets hurt and comes back as 25%. There is only so much that can be given until we seize to exist until we are left with 10% of our former selves, until we become cold and calculated, until the need for companionship is no longer there, until the thirst for material satisfaction supersedes the need for human interaction. It is then and only then do we realise that we have played and lost the game of life for there is no greater satisfaction than having a lifelong companion. To share all that you have acquired for the human soul is always searching never satisfied yearning for more. Me, I'm still searching.

New me

Its been almost two weeks since giving up the ex it was hard in the beginning and there was a day where i thought if i can make it through then my addiction may have been curbed. i did so yippee

Honestly i had help along the way...against all prior convictions i joined a dating website yes you heard me right a dating website. Now i thought its going to be a bunch of old men behind computers but then i thought if im doing it there must be some like minded people out there who are doing it as well. I was right!! i've started talking to a few people and realizing what i've been missing connecting with someone on a deeper level being able to hold a conversation without the interruptions of the world. One guy in particular has caught me off guard we talk everyday and each day i find something new that attracts me to him, the only problem is distance we are so far apart yet so close.

The question is if he is my soul mate the one person that has the key to my heart do i sacrifice everything? do i believe in soul mates? if yes does that mean we all only have one soul mate? Too many things to think about just yet but im taking it slow letting his words play the drums on my heart for i know life is not always perfect but true love lasts forever....what i know for sure is i am going to find out where my happiness lays and im going to lay right next to it....with all the treasures in this world being in love and loved back supersedes all precious jewels and material goods.